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Thursday, August 10, 2006

Still I Rise...

It didn't really hit me @ first. It took well over two weeks for it to actually occur to me. And it happened midafternoon during my daily run to the post office. Seem like I coulda done mo', said mo' Why all my partners gotta be dead or in the fed fo'?? All the time, I just wish that yall could ball wit me Sometimes at night I close my eyes, and dream that yall wit me.... I had just picked up a letter out of my PO box from my cousin. I sat in the parking lot and read it like I do every kite I get. Fresh off his final court date, being convicted and recieving life without parole, he was responding to a kite I shot him once we all found out the verdict. I drove away, "Still Ain't Forgave Myself" playing in the background. Hearing him accept his fate, I had to accept mine as well. Knew there was more to life than sellin blow and chopper bustin But what's the good in knowin' better if I ain't tell 'em nutthin When it comes to him and my younger brother, I'm starting to realize we led them astray. All the times they followed us around, emulating our every move, the way we dressed, talked, walked...they wanted to be what we already were. We didn't balance the scales by giving them equal parts good to go with the bad. I travelled back to all the times they watched us do dumb things that we young Black men do - hustling, robbing, smoking, drinking, runnin wild with birds, actin bad in general - they emulated us. I try to think "Did I ever tell them dudes about the importance of when I leave the block and blow that last L for the nite, that I sat back with a book?" Nah we pretty much taught them how to rock n' roll and left them to their own devices. Did I tell'em I prayed hard at night and rapped with God on a regular basis? Nah, on a regular basis I showed them actions that showed devilishment. Did I tell'em how I my stomach really felt when my folks had to come bail me out when I was young and how much I knew it hurt them? Nah, I just told them to get their own bail money up and acted nonchalant about how it effected my folks. I knew I coulda told Cap not to kill shawty Put down the gun, get in the car let 'em live shawty You'll probably get locked up, and I'll probably have a deal shawty Naw, I ain't scared, I'm just telling ya like it is shawty Coulda told Endae, Quint, and Kern, man ya covers blow Leave that country town alone, yall needa come back home Did I tell'em how much it hurt when A got killed and how I wouldn't wish death of them or anyone close to them because I wouldn't want them to have to deal? Nope, we just rode because that's what trill aggins do who are down for their people. Did I tell'em how much it bothers me not to be able to share with M our kids' birthdays, not to have him in the whip to clown when a new album drops, to not be in a club poppin bottles with him? Or how it feels when I need my dude to chop up a situation and keep me grounded? Nope, never showed a drop of hurt. We all just acted like he'd be aiight and would handle himself wherever he went. He's a man, a stand-up guy. In other words, I'm left criticizing myself for not being more "real," more honest in the truest sense of the word. The mistakes they made, I lived...at the time, I just didn't take the steps to help end the cycle. No regrets. No remorse. No more of the same mistakes made again though. So when I encounter a young knucklehead, I try to give it to him from two sides - the street side and the realer side of things. What I am today, I made myself But I still ain't forgave myself... Not exactly. There's a lot of souls that went into the composition of one... The best clip ever used to intro a song on an album... Dr. Dre - Little Ghetto Boy stray shots Madvillain - Madvillainy Eric Roberson - Live @ The Jazz Cafe The Pharcyde - The Humboldt Beginnings The Pharcyde - Peacock Series Volume 1 2003 Cypress Hill-1st Album Instrumentals Jin The Emcee - 100 Grand Jin Freeway - Philadelphia Freeway J.J. Fad - Supersonic Cory Gunz - The Apprentice Mixtape Vol. 1-3 Wally Sparks & 8Ball & MJG - Tennessee Pimpin (Southern-Conference) - 2006 702 - 702 8.11 Stray Shots Download 8.11 Changelink Page

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posted by Gotty™ # 8/10/2006 08:26:00 AM

Comments:

Word up , man. Real talk... Quote Jim Jones a.k.a. dirt angel a.k.a. still the realest: LIfe is like a cycle, you only live once and can't do the same mistakes twice...

l.w.p. is cold.

# posted by

Coriolanus : 8/11/2006 08:37:00 AM

A quick drop for ya'll

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Simon Webbe - Sanctuary
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Case - Case
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Obie Trice - Second Rounds On Me
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Ne-Yo - In My Own Words (bonus & unreleased tracks) [2006]
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Rihanna - A Girl Like Me (2006)
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Marc Spitz - Double Up
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Deep rooted - The Second Coming
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Mya - Mya
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Mya - Moodring
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Mya - Fear of Flying
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Kenny Lattimore And Chante Moore - Things That Lovers Do
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Jaheim - Still Ghetto
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Ideal - Ideal
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Donnel Jones - My Heart
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Matisyahu - Youth
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Joe - And Then
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Joe - Everything
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Joe - My name is Joe
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Avant - Director
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Kano - Home Sweet Home
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Guru - Version 7.0 The Street Scriptures
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Sway - This Is My Demo [2006]
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Murderers
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Joe Public -Joe Public
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VA - Pure Swing 1
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A Few Good Men - Take a Dip
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Mary J Blige - The Breakthrough
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India.Arie - Testimony: Vol. 1, Life & Relationship
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Eternal - Greatest Hits
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Janet Jackson - The Black Album: Greatest Hits Volume One
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Zena - All Of Me
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HINDA HICKS - STILL DOIN' MY THING
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Cheri Dennis
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# posted by

Dally : 8/11/2006 09:41:00 AM

thanx for the cory gunz mixtapes!!

# posted by

Andizzo : 8/11/2006 10:35:00 AM

hey there !

pwd missing for freeway's alb

# posted by

thomas : 8/11/2006 11:17:00 AM

damn son, those were some of the most profound words I have read in a while.

"So when I encounter a young knucklehead, I try to give it to him from two sides - the street side and the realer side of things."

show 'em the right way....

oh yeah, wow on the Cypress instrumentals!
thanks.

# posted by

kelvinmercerlookalike : 8/11/2006 11:30:00 AM

"You can tell someone that's gonna hurt 'em a 100 times but most of them first need to feel the pain themselves before they really understand what you're talking about..."

# posted by

Anonymous : 8/11/2006 12:20:00 PM

another good read man.....gotta love the realness....stay up my dude.....1

# posted by

Anonymous : 8/11/2006 12:39:00 PM

yo gotty (no pun) it's time to write a book my nigga. On some real shit, a book right now would set you up nicely. that is if you haven't alreay started. I been missing in action for a while, I dropped the 9 to 5 and hit the road(currently in kansas) and I'm basically speaking to the younger kids on a more grown up level. my saying is "the ins and outs of the hood made me who i am, but it was my choice to become a man" "america gave up before we started"

# posted by

Mostincredible01 on aim : 8/11/2006 01:12:00 PM

See, thats why I love the internet.

Educated Niggas embellish they life wit a few taps of da keyboard and suddenly, they life is straight out C-Murda's Greatest Hits.

Two Thumbs UP !!!

SALUTE !!!!!!!

P.S. if shit is so real why dont you post sum ole school flicks of when you was on da come up . ..

# posted by

clam chowder : 8/11/2006 01:57:00 PM

Ayo, U always keep some good words gotty, Ur never too preachy but u always come direct, plus its real easy to talk at people but u talkin to us I FEEL U my brother
it takes a village...

# posted by

JayGunnA BossTalk : 8/11/2006 02:01:00 PM

hey idiot...
"P.S. if shit is so real why dont you post sum ole school flicks of when you was on da come up ..."

what 'real' person would dry snitch on themselves?

# posted by

poo : 8/11/2006 02:10:00 PM

Anyone have Trick Daddy-Thug Holiday? Can't find my CD and I'm feenin to hear "Dro In Da Wind." Props.

# posted by

Anonymous : 8/11/2006 02:36:00 PM

gotty reminds me of both clipse members with this new one.

i see what you mean though. gotta show them both sides of the coin.

myspace.com/djmainevent

# posted by

Anonymous : 8/11/2006 03:56:00 PM

niggaz is mad fake and mad corny on this comment sheet

actin like yall some OG naggaz that got OG respect

muthafuckaz

yall is some backwater, black redneck country agginz

fa real fa real

come to brooklyn and watch ya whole face melt

niggaz need to take a bath and quit believing they rap cd collection

them rappin naggaz aint shit anyway

they aint real

you aint real

this blog aint real

IS BROOKLYN IN DA HOUSE ??????

# posted by

cK *5* Hardbody Silent Killaz *5*cK : 8/11/2006 04:22:00 PM

WORD... I FEEL YOU MY THUG.... DIS NICCA THINK HE DA BLACK VERSION OF SEAN CONNERY FROM FINDING FORRESTER.... FUCKIN FLUTE FLOOP....

# posted by

B-BONE : 8/11/2006 04:24:00 PM

Nope, we just rode because that's what trill aggins do who are down for their people.

DUCK TALES---- A WHOO OOOOOOOOH !!!!!!

# posted by

disney dillinger : 8/11/2006 04:26:00 PM

"You can tell someone that's gonna hurt 'em a 100 times but most of them first need to feel the pain themselves before they really understand what you're talking about..."

Word.

# posted by

Gotty™ : 8/11/2006 04:29:00 PM

Duck Tales...hmm.

Yep. You caught me in a lie.

Yep.

The interesting thing is you interesting individuals follow the progress of things here, watch what I or somebody else writes...and then comments.

Now who's the duck lol?

Thanks for boosting the numbers as usual. Always appreciated.

# posted by

Gotty™ : 8/11/2006 05:40:00 PM

Whats the passoword for freeway?
Thanks

# posted by

Anonymous : 8/11/2006 05:45:00 PM

off the subject but..

'niggaz need to take a bath and quit believing they rap cd collection'

lmao

# posted by

Anonymous : 8/11/2006 06:53:00 PM

Wow.

You know what I just realized? DJ Muggs is a f*cking genius! That sh*t doesn't even sound dated.

I'm blown away.

# posted by

Anonymous : 8/11/2006 07:05:00 PM

Always been w/ that tip. Even pendejos older than me -actin- up thuggish but fukn goin to college, please. Thats why I beat my lil cuzn's ass whenever he fakn like lil wayne n shyt, just tell him hes lucky for the close fam he has n to elevate his mental,n that manning up don't mean having to -act- tough, just be real w/ themselves [of course beat that azz when stepped to also]. On the other hand, my older primo got sent back to san quintin, been there most his life since early teens. carnal know better but just don't give so I guess it could be put in a full circle perspective to get everyone's mind right, n off that soda while at it. My point of view anyway. But yup, no doubts bout it, just real talk. Fukn D, props homes for the fukk jams, also for the Cypress hill beats whoever sent em.

# posted by

joox : 8/11/2006 07:42:00 PM

Duck Tales?

# posted by

Anonymous : 8/11/2006 07:51:00 PM

ay that shit was real as hell g..

# posted by

young_p0 : 8/11/2006 08:20:00 PM

LOL!!!! "DISNEY DILLINGER???" WHO THE HELL THINKS UP THIS SHIT??? LOL! BUT I KNOW YOUZ A YOUNGSTA USING DUCK TALES REFERENCE. I WAS ALREADY A TEEN BY THE TIME THAT SHIT HIT THE AIRWAVES

# posted by

Anonymous : 8/11/2006 08:30:00 PM

http://hallowedgrounds.blogspot.com/

a great blogspot in the making

# posted by

Anonymous : 8/11/2006 08:45:00 PM

This Is Probably One Of Your Best Posts Ever Gotty. <3

# posted by

K. : 8/11/2006 08:57:00 PM

gotty baby,

i wanna suck da veins out ya dick after reading that post !!!

holla !!!!

Luv and scrotum squeezes,

-Mark-

# posted by

Mark Budeyhol : 8/12/2006 12:37:00 AM

Why is the 8ball MJG download an .exe file and not a zip or rar?

# posted by

Anonymous : 8/13/2006 01:09:00 AM

We didn't balance the scales by giving them equal parts good to go with the bad.
________________
That, my dear watson, is the best part of being a libra.

We ain't right, if we ain't balanced.

# posted by

Hummingbyrd : 8/13/2006 07:44:00 PM

do you think u can please upload mya's self-titled cd again please.
i don't care how long you take but please upload it.
Thanks in Advance

# posted by

myrna956 : 10/17/2007 03:30:00 PM

can u please post myas debut album again please

# posted by

Anonymous : 8/29/2008 07:50:00 PM

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